Seriously....

Well, if falling off the face of the earth was an art form....I'd be the expert! I love you guys and I miss u. I hope you are all doing great. I am ok I guess. I got in a car accident a couple of days ago and totalled my car, and had to go to the hospital. I'm ok, just beat up a bit. I'm still working alot and trying to sort my life out. Please pray for me. I miss u all bunches!

On track...focused...steady :)

Breakfast with Michelle and Alex :)

I had a great time at Panera this morning with Michelle and her little man!

I just need to stop doubting, pushing, rushing, and wandering...i just need to "be still" and listen

Well, Im starting to feel like I just can't get it right...you know that feeling when you are always taking two steps back....thats me. lol. But Im doing ok. I have to get out of the parents house, and as much as I think its good that I am here with my parents, I also think its good for me to have my freedom. I also am fully understanding that i need church...i need fellowship, because without it I get lost. I truthfully have so many questions and doubts sometimes, and without a strong base I wander. So, I am going to truly try to make it a priority to go to church, if not every sunday, at least more than now.
Ok, so for good stuff :)I have a new "guy friend" as T.J. says...lol...his name is Chris Hackler, and I worked with him in the meat dept. at Fresh Market...lol. (yes I know...how romantic..lol) but, he is super funny, and I love that he makes me laugh...he likes to watch movies, and play video games...lol seriously...what is it with guys and video games...haha. Anyway, I like him, and we have been on a few dates..so we shall see..:) I might be moving in with my good friend Steven...I stress friend..cause that is all we are...and he is a little older than me...it would just be a roomie sort of thing. I only say this cause i know your concerns especially with the brandon thing...but we are just friends...and I would have the basement apt. and he would be upstairs. I am thinking about it anyway, the rent is cheap and its close to work and school. We shall see ;) Please pray that I can make a good decision :) I feel like I am so close to something. You know when you start to feel your life slowly taking shape. I feel like Im standing on the edge of something. I know God has a plan. I feel like God is standing behind me and giving me a gentle nudge ;) i fee like my material life IS taking shape, but my spriritual life needs some work. I need to make spending time with God, and learning more of a priority. What am I so afraid of? Why do I have such a hard time letting go and trusting God. You all know me, you know I'm very open minded..but that same open mindedness sometimes can be a dissability. I doubt, I get frustrated, I get defensive. Christianity can sometimes be abbrasive, almost too much (ok guys, Im being brutally honest right now..and I hope I dont offend anyone...Im just letting stuff go...I need to get it all out in order to grow....) but it can be...in your face sometimes. And for years I pushed it away, let it in, pushed it away..let it in. I want to let it in, I want to be a Godly woman, I want to have a Savior. I want to feel that I have a strong faith...a purpose. The funny thing is, is I have read so many books on other religions, all sorts of things, but I have never really taken the time to really delve into Gods word...?! I mean..how hypocritical is that? lol. I don't know...I just feel like I need to stop making excuses, stop allowing Satan to twist my thoughts and break me down. Anyway, I really need to just focus, pray, and hold on. I want Jesus to fill my heart, I want to live a life for Christ! Sorry guys, I know that was an earfull, but I think I just need to stop holding on to these things and just let go of it all. I know there will always be a battle so to speak when you are living christian life....but I have to shield myself, and stop giving in to Satan's lies.
Please pray that I can grow...just move forward and grow in my walk with Christ, and stop holding on to whatever it is Im holding on to, or stop giving in to my doubts and fears!..I love u guys so much for being there for me and lifting me up!

Stand..

It is amazing to me, although it should not be by now, how God shows Himself. I have been stressing and worrying about so many things; I have been concerned about spriritual warfair going on around me, and due to these things always always find myself lost in my faith. And so, after having some much needed girl time with Michelle, in which we discussed these things and how to pray about them, i went home and spent some time with the Lord. I prayed for God to give me the strength to push through the stress and frustration. I prayed for "armor" And so, I picked up my "When Wallflowers Dance" and started to read, and I got to a section called "Stand". Sometimes you have done everything you know to do, you abide, you pray, and sometimes after everything has been done, you STAND...I was then shown Ephesians 6:13 "Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to STAND. God gave me my armor! Now whenever I feel the warfair beginning around me, this will be my prayer, I will suit up in my armor from God!

School,work,school,work......

Ugh, what a month...school and work...and repeat. I started my math class which is a bit of a challenge...(cause ya'll know I'm sooo good at math...) but I am keeping my head high. Work, has been interesting...(considering we have no air conditioning at the moment...)but again..I am keeping my head high. I am so thankful that God has opened doors for me though and allowed me the opportunity to get back into school. I must apologize to my friends who I have put on the back burner though. Im sorry I am not always where I need to be. I hope that you are all doing well, and I pray for you all daily. God is definately showing me my strengths..and challenging me in ways I need to be challenged. I do not always feel like the woman of God I should be, or the woman I am striving to be. Sometimes i am stubborn, and try to take the reigns myself. Its not that I forget God is in control, but I try to get one step ahead...and we all know...there is no getting ahead of God. He lays the path out for me, not I or anyone else. I do try to see the glory in each day, and take joy in the little things. I see God in so many things, sunny skies, babies smiles, friends laughter, good music, cooking while Nina Simone plays in the background, cups of tea, porches, and good books. I take comfort in these little joys. I want to be good soil. I want be a grounded, strong, passionate woman of God! I love you all and I miss u!

Back from the depths!!

hey everyone!!! I am soooo sorry I have been "missing in action" School is coming along, I start in the next couple of weeks, work has been keeping me busy as ever, and Ive just been trying to hold it all together. Thank you all for your never ending friendship and prayers. I have (in the words of Beth Moore) been holding my hand up high!! Satan tries to weasle his way in and around things to drag me down...all the time. I pray we all get to see each other soon, and I hope you are all doing well!

Michelle spending time in God's word at the cabin :)

Women,Fellowship, and Brownies:)

I had a wonderful time on the retreat! Our cabin was lovely, positioned among the tall trees of the smokies. Michelle's Beth Moore study was awesome and I have learned so much about God, and making my theology a reality!
I praise God for the hot tub, brownies, taboo, giggles late at night, fellowship, and snow! It was awesome. I feel so renewed in Christ, and we watched Fireproof today before we left, it was amazing! I was bawling, something about Kirk Cameron crying....but it made me hope for that some day. I want to find a Godly man, and be in a Godly marriage :) But, I also know that I have to be patient, and pray, and one day when God is ready, it will happen in my life. I pray that I can continue to spend time in His word all day, not just at quiet time, but all day. I thank God for all he showed me this weekend, for growing closer to all the ladies, and of course, brownies! I love u guys! Jennifer, I hope to talk to you soon! I can't wait to share with you :)
-Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together as some are in the habit of doing, let us encourage one another- Hebrews 10:22-25

No longer afraid....

Hey all. I have been struggling for so long about witnessing to people. All my life, even in high school when my faith was grounded, I found it hard to approach people, openly share my faith. But now, I see no other way around it. God is showing me amazing things in my life. Above all I truly understand how much He loves me, and I want everyone to feel that love. "I do not conceal your love and your truth from the great assembly"-Psalms 40:10. I am no longer afraid to speak of the Lord. I have my faith, and His word. I try to be a light at work, at home, and with my friends. I am so excited to see God working in my Mom's life. Little by litte I am seeing a spark in her. First, I know she is thinking of going to a baptist church, which is wonderful, and second she randomly ask me if I had seen Fireproof the other day and said that she had added it to her Netflix list. I hope that I can continue to be a christian example in her life. Please continue to pray that I can be strong in my faith, and share God's love with as many people as I can! ;)

It's Whitney..lol..

Ok, for the sake of all of you guys I am just going to go by Whitney on the blog..lol...Its too confusing...lol. So...if you now see Whitney on my posts....its me :) I hope everyone had a great week. I had a WONDERFUL meal tonight with the Hands and fam :) It has been WAY too long since I had a Mama Hand meal and it was so yummy! Hilarity insued as always when Daddy Hand and Todd starting playing with their food....Todd had broken two triscuits and had them in his mouth like a walrus, and Daddy Hand was the ritz man with ritz crackers for eyes...Good times!!! Never a dull moment...:) I pray Alex gets a good nights sleep and is ready for his dedication tomorrow! I so wish I could be there, but I will be thinking of you Alex! :) Jenn, I hope you are feeling better, and hope we can catch each other on skype soon! Love you all, and I will talk to you all soon!
P.S. Michelle...the pie was awesome! I'm sorry I didn't finish my piece...i was too full from the FOUR bowls of soup I had...lol...

Crazy week..:)

Hey all! I hope everyone is having a great week! It has been crazy for me. At work we are doing inventory....joy...BUT some great news is that I got my schedule covered so I will be able to go to the women's retreat at the end of the month!! yay!! I had almost just given up on trying to get it covered and it just sort of fell into place (God is great!!). It will really be wonderful to get away from everything for a few days and spend some one on one time with the Lord! :) I am very upset that I have to miss Alex's dedication on Sunday, but my prayers will be with him:) and I'm so excited for him. I hope everyone has a great weekend and I will talk to you all soon! God bless~!

Sabrina Ward Harrison Art

I love Sabrina Ward Harrison Art:)

The Princess Diaries and Fellowship

Hey all, I had a wonderful day at church, and a great time hanging out with Michelle and the little man. Michelle made me a wonderful lunch, and we watched The Princess Diaries. Great girl time :) God definately spoke to me this morning. Nothing matters, nothing but accepting the Lord as my savior! He continues to show me joy everyday! I am so thankful :)

God is sooo great!

This morning during breakfast, mom and I were just chatting in the kitchen when she mentioned that she was thinking about going to a baptist church! I invited her to Westview with me on Sunday and she said she will think about it. God is definately working on her heart, and answering prayer!!!! Please continue to pray for my parents, I hope that God will move in their hearts and lives :)

Gift card mania...and yay weekend

Ugh, am I glad today is over. So you all know I work at a spa, and well being valentines day weekend....you can imagine the slew of giftcards I had to issue today.....Whew.....I am very much looking forward to the next few days off. I just got home and just inhaled my dad's leftover homeade chili (sorry Jenn, I can't help myself...) and part of a cheese danish that a lady from work gave me for val. day. (I know, such a healthy dinner!! lol) I'm am proud to say I got to start my day off with some time with the Lord. Ive been trying to get up early enough to have some quiet time in the morning; it really does help my day to stay focused on the right things :) I love u all! Night;)

Almost Friday.....:)

Whew! I'm really excited tomorrow is Friday, and I get to have a lovely extended weekend off :) I learned so many exciting things today, First, I'm doing a Kay Arthur devotional study called "Lord, i want to know You." It is really awesome, and today I was reading the chapter entitled The Creator, describing all the names of God. How God has made each one of us a precious, special creation. It really got me thinking how I would love to lead a women's bible study on self-esteem. It is something I know I struggle with, and I'm sure many other women do to. I really feel that God is opening a door there...So please pray that God allows an opportunity to fellowship with other women about their worth in God's eyes. Second, can I just praise God for Ankar's grilled chicken riders...lol..they are wonderful :) Jenn, did you ever go to Greyfriars coffee shop when you were here? They have a wonderful little couch that I can't wait to drink some coffee on with you soon :) Michelle, sorry I couldnt make it tonight to Alex' 6month birthday, but I'm so excited :) My little man is getting big...I love you all and I will talk to you all soon. I hope you all have a wonderful rest of the week. I will leave you with the memory verse I memorized last night..."The name of the Lord is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe." Proverbs 18:10

Spa day and time with the Lord:)

I had a super fantastic day! I had a spa day with my mom, we went to where I work and mom had a facial and I had a massage. We went out to eat, and I am about to have some "quiet time" in my favorite big comfy chair!! :) I went to the Samaritan Center and found six new devotionals/study journals for 3 dollars! I love that place!
"the people who know their God will display strength and take action!"-Daniel 11:32

Great weekend!

This has been such a wonderful weekend! God is great. Yesterday I went to the park with Michelle and my favorite little man! Alex is so precious! We took some awesome pictures of him playing at Imagination Station. Michelle and I also had some wonderful felllowship time, talking about God working in our lives.
This is a picture from when Michelle and I had girls night ;)